a few sketches of mine here and there :]

I'M A BARBIE GIRL !!!!!!!

checklist to be a perfect person:
blonde ,smooth hair (check)
huge colourful eyes with long lashes (check)
small tiny nose (check)
COLOSSAL lips (check)
tall (check)
perfect figure (check)
gr8 outfits (check)
perfect hot boyfriend + car + gr8 house at the suburbs (check)
and on and on.........we could go on with BARBIE's perfection........but lets get one thing straight, is this really what beauty is all about, the dream that everyone wants to make real, the goal everyone seeks to attain?
is this the image of happiness, THIS IS HOW U SHOULD LOOK LIKE and THOSE ARE THE MATERIALS U NEED TO HAVE to actually feel content and satisfied and popular?

in today's world we know how THE MEDIA tries to turn our perspective on life upside down, and it does nothing but to produce twits, and erase the real picture...
but they do not only target adults, they target 3+ kids now, by these small sized modules "barbie", and their songs reflecting perfection.......( as if)
and you can see them selling the perfect life in a small sized cartoon costing 30$, if not more.

its so sad to see how happiness can be so materialized and defaulted by those absurd ideas, a person CAN be happy without necessarily looking like a top model, or a millionaire.........




i once knew a woman who smiled though she only had one dress, she did not need the MAN, the HOUSE, or the MONEY........
i hope we could all find our content and peace within ourselves, because thats where happiness really lies in..... within us

a silent moonless night.....

its 2:25 am
weird day i went through...made many calls, reconnected with people i adore and miss,
drank lots of caffeine, craved for crispy creams all day but ended up with a basket of fruits......blogged, slept for five hours and here i am acting all insomniac...!!!!

here i am thinking about life..what is exactly that i truly aspire.....
i have everything planned in my life, i think i do, but is that what i really want?
a SAFE journey, a predictable journey?
i think everything is perfect, i dont think i need anything.....

i was once going through blogs and all and i found this dude called DEREK....he had this awesome theory that im starting to apply in real life !
if u wanna do something but u r hesitant and cannot decide..u either think about it as in *HELL YA* or *NO* !
example: if u wanna go for a trip and u cannot decide...think about it..is it a HELL YEA or MAYBE i wanna go...if its a "maybe" then dont go....simple !

its summer and all, and all i could think about right now is my next new adventure...UNIVERSITY!
anxious, enthusiastic , scared , i think too much of what people may think of me ALREADY...

sometimes....u can actually WATCH ure life passing by, u can see the perfect scenario, sort of a vision thing.....why are we so sure?? why do i KNOW this WILL happen? and why do i HATE that? and how come i am whining about living a well....an almost perfect life....why couldn't human beings just stop that CRAVING to satisfy their own stupid desires..... there are people dieing all over the world, that wish for having a life like u and me....u prolly reading this....which means u have a computer, which means u can pay for an extra necessity in life..which means u have more than enough..(enough= food, shelter, water) which means ure ok.......
this is a never ending talk....bottom line is......
i wish my life was an adventure ,i wish i could climb the Himalayas, i wish i could fight bears and swim with dolphins, i wish i was lost in a forest....i wish..i wish.......WHAT A MENTAL COMBAT!

small convo between ME and my heart:

me: OMG IN A MONTH WELL BE GOING TO COLLEGE
heart: thinking silently
me: OMG !!!! ITS ALL NEW WELL GET TO GRADUATE , WORK , MARRY, HAVE KIDS, DIE.
heart: well...sure MAYBE am a bit excited.............it all sounds so COOL!

am INSANE..am in HISTORY !

Einstein, Nikola tesla , Sir Newton, and many more physicists and scientists..........
memorable people , that have truly made a difference in today's world....well...like:
1) guys using the Einsteins hairstyle to get girls...
2) shakira imitating Isac's look
3) highschool students failing their physics subject just because an apple happened to fall on top of some dude's head :)
4) super domination of the world and the presence of the belief that u can break the earth into two....just like tesla claimed after doing some stuff with the earth's magnetic field...uhmmmm.

And many many more....... truly respectable scientists that we need a clone from , for the sake of today's generation
but i rili cant help but wonder.......
Why did each of these guys end up mad ???
is it that their brain capacity couldn't take so much info??
some of them even turned to atheists ..because they truly believed that there is only vacuum, an illusion, a coincidence to believe in.....
i find it to be an INTERESTING predicament...do smart guys really end up mad and frustrated by a riddle or an equation..or is it because they stored so much in their brain that a backward reaction happened and the dam started flooding until it became dry -_______-"
nikola tesla one of the greatest scientists lived in an asylum !!!
Einstein !!! stopped washing his hair and stopped showering...!!!!!!!!!!!

why?
because he thought it would take too much of his precious time....
when i went to Lebanon this summer..i went to the SILICON MUSEUM..a truly fascinating museum only for celebrities....originally started by Lebanon, but now you can find it all over the world, in France, new york.....anyhooo...so there was Einstein !! that awesome silicon sculpture of him and he had this horrible truly horrible haircut ! which did not suit his oval face..na'ah !

this might sound too lame...but....seriously!u needn't stop washing ure self and not using soap to scrub yourself..for the sake of SCIENCE! be too smart and figure out an easier way to shower while ure EXPERIMENTING !

the harmony of black and white

its 9:22 pm, i was checking out some jokes so this joke passed by me,
"child to mom : MOM why does the bride wear white on her wedding day?
mom: because its the happiest day of her life dear.
After sometime the child went back to his mom,
child to mom: well, then why does the groom wear black?????"

THEN, i started thinking all about weddings, and couples, and this question came to my mind,
i mean seriously! WHY ?? WHY?? WHY???....why does the wedding ALWAYS revolve around the bride???? why is it that everyone's heads always turn towards the WHITE INFLATED BEAUTY?
is it because the beauty of the woman is easier to capture and recognize? is it the makeup, the dress? the BLING BLING?
i sort of feel sad for the groom, that lonely black DEflated figure :'(
yes , i am a female, a perfectionist obsessed with objects being placed at a perpendicular angle.....BUT im also a JUST human being.

in nature, male birds are much more colourful and prettier than female birds, theyve also got the chiming ringing voice for female bird attraction----fact.


why is it that the bride gets to throw her bouquet? why couldnt the groom perhaps throw his tie ? xD

subject of matter is that am not being a sexist, its just the *i cannot fathom* zone in my head, that needs an urgent explanation :S
last but no least
WHY ON EARTH COULDN'T THE GROOM ALSO WEAR WHITE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

Sweet solitude !

This is my first day of blogging.....probably there is no one reading ...probably someone IS in fact reading......
but I sure have no choice but to fulfill my time with something..well....semi-productive !
i will try to everyday update my blog with things that constantly pop up in mind....ummm...unfortunately been known for my bizarre character, and incomprehensible verbal interaction (lack of expression / audience of low IQ) xD...so you will prolly enjoy it or just stare blankly at the screen like this !



WAT THE---------------- ???????????

However ! i wouldn't really be able to change anything of what i write or what i write on....or Why am i writing that way..because what am doing is basically writing a diary...
more like a PUBLIC diary :D
PEACE !

VoiLa !