its 2:25 am
weird day i went through...made many calls, reconnected with people i adore and miss,
drank lots of caffeine, craved for crispy creams all day but ended up with a basket of fruits......blogged, slept for five hours and here i am acting all insomniac...!!!!
here i am thinking about life..what is exactly that i truly aspire.....
i have everything planned in my life, i think i do, but is that what i really want?
a SAFE journey, a predictable journey?
i think everything is perfect, i dont think i need anything.....
i was once going through blogs and all and i found this dude called DEREK....he had this awesome theory that im starting to apply in real life !
if u wanna do something but u r hesitant and cannot decide..u either think about it as in *HELL YA* or *NO* !
example: if u wanna go for a trip and u cannot decide...think about it..is it a HELL YEA or MAYBE i wanna go...if its a "maybe" then dont go....simple !
its summer and all, and all i could think about right now is my next new adventure...UNIVERSITY!
anxious, enthusiastic , scared , i think too much of what people may think of me ALREADY...
sometimes....u can actually WATCH ure life passing by, u can see the perfect scenario, sort of a vision thing.....why are we so sure?? why do i KNOW this WILL happen? and why do i HATE that? and how come i am whining about living a well....an almost perfect life....why couldn't human beings just stop that CRAVING to satisfy their own stupid desires..... there are people dieing all over the world, that wish for having a life like u and me....u prolly reading this....which means u have a computer, which means u can pay for an extra necessity in life..which means u have more than enough..(enough= food, shelter, water) which means ure ok.......
this is a never ending talk....bottom line is......
i wish my life was an adventure ,i wish i could climb the Himalayas, i wish i could fight bears and swim with dolphins, i wish i was lost in a forest....i wish..i wish.......WHAT A MENTAL COMBAT!
small convo between ME and my heart:
me: OMG IN A MONTH WELL BE GOING TO COLLEGE
heart: thinking silently
me: OMG !!!! ITS ALL NEW WELL GET TO GRADUATE , WORK , MARRY, HAVE KIDS, DIE.
heart: well...sure MAYBE am a bit excited.............it all sounds so COOL!
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